My Despair

Free-falling into the depth of despair
No strings holding on, no safety net
For once, I forget all my inhibitions
I'm just me. Completely free.
And as empty as the space all around me
I want to pour my soul into a glass
Stir it up a bit. See what becomes of it.

These shadows, they won't let me be.
Persistently hovering, haunting me eternally
Dark clouds over my already dim existence.
Trapped in my freedom. Escape, a distant dream
A fantasy. With non-existent schemes and plots.
And so I fall deeper still. Further down the hole.
Uncomfortable with the knowledge that this hole, I did dig

And now, my heart's pounding. Getting closer
I just want it to end, to all be over
But what I want doesn't always matter
I'll take what I'm given, or go on without
This is the point I feared but longed for
The darkness, so much more than welcome
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I really don't know what to say about the above poem. Been going through some ish lately, and this is the best way I could let out some frustration. So, you can leave your thoughts below if you like. I'd love to see them though.
PS: I am very aware it doesn't rhyme.